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| "Perhaps they are
not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost
ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are
happy."
-Eskimo Proverb
Dear Dad,
I love you tons and I wish I could have celebrated Father's Day with
you today. I would have loved to go out for a tasty steak, an
irish beer, and heavenly dessert. I'd love to chat with you,
laugh with you, and just be with you.
I hope you are having a wonderful time in paradise and hopefully I'll
see you again someday. Until then I'll be hugging you in my
heart.
Happy Father's Day!
I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my daddy you'll be.
Love,
Helen
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| Dear Xanga,
I'm sorry I have abandoned you. I feel awful about my
neglectfulness. But don't worry, I have returned. Since
I've rediscovered you, I realize how I can pour my secrets to you, I
can reflect and be creative. So here I am. Home again.
Summer is finally here. And I am so gratefully for it. This
past year has been really shitty. Now, of course, me being an
optimist I cannot say that everything was crap - there were some great
moments and I've learned and grown a lot as a person, as an actress -
but I've put up with a lot of stuff that has made this year
difficult. I'm looking forward to a fresh start and I'm going to
push myself to make my senior year a good one.
Wow. I can't believe I'm going to be a senior. That's beyond real.
I decided today that over the three months I have before the fall, my
goal is to lose 30 pounds. Now, this might be completely
unrealistic, but that would be about 10 pounds a month - 2.5 pounds a
week. The plan is to drink tons of water, eat fruits, veggies,
and protiens, and exercise my butt off. Oh, and check my blood
sugar more frequently and remember to take my thyroid pill and my
supplements. I know I can do it if I really work hard at it and
it is something that I need to do in order to follow my dreams of being
an actress. Besides, I'm taking an arobics class and a jazz dance
class in the fall so I should get in shape so that I can be fit enough
to do two exercise classes in one day... eek!
I started my first summer class today. It's going to be intense,
but I think I'm going to discover a lot about my spiritual life, which
will be interesting b/c I'm finding theatre to be more and more
spiritual for me. huh. Interesting...
Okay, now I'm just rambling... I'm going to go celebrate the fact that
it's summer and watch a movie... then go to bed and sleep in late
tomorrow... hooray!
Love always,
hcburon
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| i totally forgot that i owned this xanga...
but now that i've recently re-discovered it, i think i will write my
thoughts here. not very many people know about this lovely little
journal-escape... and sometimes i need an outlet - whether it be for
ranting or for some creative outburst that i must let escape.
"What is there to do when people die - people so dear and rare - but bring them back by remembering?" - May Sarton
Rest in Peace Justin - you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
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| *sigh*
i hate change
my brother leaves for college on saturday... and it feels sooo weird... i know he'll have a great time... but it's like... my siblings are growing up - i'm growing up... ahh!
this summer i've worked so much - really it feels like all i have done is nothing but work - and even though i needed to work to pay the bills, i am really mad at myself because time is so precious... life is too short to work all the time... i feel like pinching myself, making myself appreciate what i have and to realize that it won't be there forever.
gah... i wish i could take all these thoughts and feelings and put them in a jar... and put the jar on the shelf for awhile... until i am ready to face them...
good night...
"the hardest part of love is the letting go" - children of eden | | |
| flowing over rocks, she dances
sparkling in the sun, she shines
river water goddess, she breathes
-hcburon
(it's a work in progress)
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